Oh my god, I love him so much
Why am I always in denial? The one phrase I use the most is “I’m over it” but the worst part is I keep saying it and the more I say it the more I think to myself and think “Am I really over it?”. Me saying “I’m over it” gives me reassurance on the outside I guess but sometimes I don’t want the problem to just go away without knowing why I’m saying “I’m over it” in the first place but sometimes I just have to move on… because I know that sometimes I really do have to get “over it”.
One day when I find that special someone, I would want him to write me letters and send it to me through the mail. I don’t know why but I like it the old fashioned way. Honestly I get so excited to see mail for me instead of stupid facebook notifications. I honestly feel that love for the past decade has evolved because of technology. Technology makes everything so complicated where back in the past few centuries, most people communicated through mail. Sometimes that mail would take days or even months to get to you but I feel that time does the heart some good sometimes whereas on facebook you can receive the message within seconds.
I’m just so sick and tired of everyones shit lately. I sincerely can say that i do not fit into this crowd but I’m being forced by my determination to do better in school and such but once it’s over, i’ll be glad because I can go back to being myself without the fear of being judged.
I’ve been so overwhelmed lately.
My AP teachers told me that one point within the year you will break down and cry. Blech I feel it coming.